Note: My interview with author and teacher Alysa Braceau is forthcoming.
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In The Sorcerer’s Dream, my initiation into the sorcerer’s world, I describe among others the art of mastering lucid dreaming and how to reach the totality of the Self by mastering this skill. To reach this point you have to face your spiritual, physical and emotional blocks and work on them to release them. Letting go of these blocks finally takes you to totality where you will experience and be aware that you are the creator of your own reality.
In the following excerpt my dreaming teacher Vidar instructs me how to heal my inner child, it gives you an impression of one of the techniques to trace and to let go of your blocks.
Excerpt of the Sorcerer’s Dream
Vidar stares out in front of himself for a moment and says, “Recently a nine-year-old girl came up to me. She asked me for help because she was lost. She doesn’t understand the world around her; especially her father’s reactions are incomprehensible to her.”
No need for an elaborate explanation, I am the nine-year-old girl.
“I saw the way your father shouted at you and found it unbearable to watch. Time and again, the girl opened herself up for love, but finally closed her heart to stop getting hurt. A child consists of love,” he continues. “When you hurt a child deliberately, they shut down. People who were maltreated as a child can end up in the same pattern later in their life. They meet a partner who hurts them and think that is love. The absence of love in your youth hurts and causes you to be hard hit later in life as well.”
I do not identify myself with his words, but somehow I feel acknowledged. The girl does not appear unexpectedly, I bumped into her as I was digging up the past in search of the seed that developed my independence. At all cost I wanted to get rid of the block, encouraged by Black Crow who urged me to heal my traumas.
“You have to go and get her,” Vidar says, “she’s in an unknown space and she doesn’t know the way out. She needs to feel safe and have a place to heal.”
That is all I want. “But how do I handle that?”
“Remember the situation when you felt rejected and try to visualize it as vivid as possible and call upon your ancestors. Ask who wants to help you accompany your inner child. Call her, ask her where she is, travel to her with your dream body, and take her to your inviolable space to heal. You learned about dreaming and you know how your dream body operates outside your body. Tell her not to be afraid, tell her you are the master of fear. Give her your love and say: experience it and absorb it, I will take your fears away now. After that, draw healing symbols on the girl and in your environment.” He adds it is essential you are not fixated during your travels or distracted.
“Emotions are an obstacle which could make you stop.”
According to Vidar, picking up the girl is a quest or a chivalrous voyage through unknown territory with knowledge and intent.
Not long after that, I felt misunderstood and rejected by my father and made the decision to go get the girl. After traveling through a dark tunnel, I end up on a green cliff surrounded by high trees overlooking the ocean. It is the place where I met my parents. My nine-year-old self comes running toward me; it is as if she had bread and water for years. Without hesitation, the girl comes along with me to my inviolable space and I carry out the rest of the procedure.
Ever since then my inner child feels noticed because now she comes knocking more frequently. One night, right before I fall asleep, I hear her crying. Only then, I realize she cried more often in the twilight-zone, but I quietly slept through it. Images of unprocessed events from the past, memories, often pass by right before a feeling of fear, loneliness, depression, anger or rejection. I push my reluctance aside and will listen to her from now on. Sometimes I avoid her for days or weeks, but eventually I sit down, take her along to my inviolable space and ask the girl (who
skips from one age to another, from young to older and back) what she is trying to tell me. As soon as I brought new insights to the surface, I integrate her in myself and in most cases, I feel much lighter afterward.
Alysa Braceau, Dreamshield lives in the Netherlands (Europe), she is mother of a 7-year old daughter. She studied social legal studies and the passed ten years she is a (freelance) journalist and publisher. Besides that she has a healing practice and gives workshops about the Art of Dreaming. Alysa Braceau is author of The Sorcerer’s Dream. The theme of the past years have been the sorcerers tradition and mastering lucid dreaming. She carefully recorded her personal experiences which has finally led to this first book.
About the Sorcerer’s Dream –
The Sorcerer’s Dream, A true story of initiation into the Native American sorcerer’s tradition by Alysa Braceau, Dreamshield. The author gives us a glimpse into the very real world of lucid dreaming and astral projection. Her direct experiences with a modern day mystic, Running Deer, takes the work of Castaneda one step further. In The Sorcerer’s Dream, she reveals unique steps to mastering lucid dreaming and travelling to the unknown.
Amazon – http://www.amazon.com/Sorcerers-Dream-Dreamshield-Alysa-Braceau/dp/16091…
Alysa at dreamshield.nl